It's finally Sunday. Thank goodness, even though I am not working full-time right now I still appreciate my Sunday's. Yesterday was my cheat day so I am not particularly hungry. Am finding that the most important thing for me is to make sure I am getting enough sleep to help avoid/prevent any further emotional breakdowns.

Breakfast:

Half a rack of ribs and coffee.

Lunch:

Finished the rack of ribs and some homemade slaw

Dinner:

Hamburger,hot dog, pulled pork, slaw, salad

In other news, I am really struggling with the whole stress thing. I know it is ruining my health but it seems to be something that fuels everything I do. One of my goals while C is away at school was to learn to go with the flow and allowing myself to stress has not been following that! I have basically told myself to cut the crap and train even if I am tired. This past week I only got to lift on Tuesday because after that I literally went three days with zero sleep. Monday I will start back at Bikram and Tuesday,Thursday,Saturday I will lift. I have to find it within me to keep myself motivated so that I do not get defeated. I have always been the type of person that has allowed outside sources ( coaches,parents,ect) to motivate me but I am learning that being on my own means I have to find it within me to motivate. It also goes along with learning how to say No.